2nd Class friend.

Ever feel like a second class friend? You know sometimes you feel that your friends dont appreciate you as much as you do them. I definitely feel that way since I really started to have friends in junior high. I always find out after the fact that all my friends went out and had a great time together, but not one of them even thought to call me. I guess its kinda because I never let anyone get truly close, but that is just the way i am. I will be surprised if anyone ever reads what I will right here, so to me its a safe place to put down my thoughts about everything and blow off some steam. i have a tendency to keep thinking about stuff and then positive feedback happens and when i finally express the problems i have they are blown up larger than life. I need this to stop that tendency in me... so ill probably be making posts between once a day and once a week.